PATTERNS DO REPEAT: EVER GROWING, EVER EVOLVING
During some scrolling on social media, I came across a video talking about how experiences from 2014-2015 might be repeating—only this time, we have the opportunity to approach them with more wisdom and experience. Curious, I had to go through my phone’s photos to remember where I was and what I was doing during that period. Here’s what I found:
I was still pursuing a career in Law Enforcement.
I had just wrapped up a course and earned a certificate specializing with the DOJ. This was supposed to be my ticket to employment. I kept applying to multiple agencies, but I was repeatedly denied.
My mentor at the police department suggested I “put time in between” school and applying, but I wasn’t willing to wait indefinitely. If I wasn’t being hired due to my age or lack of “paid experience,” I wasn’t going to just sit around as an unpaid intern. I had bills to pay and a son to support.
So, I made the difficult decision to put Law Enforcement on hold and made the craziest pivot—I went back to school. This time, for Cosmetology.
Going back to school was no easy feat. It required sacrifices on every level. I had to leave my son in Sacramento for a month with Marvin while I stayed with my aunts in Milpitas and Concord, just to get started with school, find a part-time job, and eventually secure a new home in Alameda.
September 2014.
Phew, I forgot just how painful that first month of school was! We lived in different cities and seeing each other was difficult with custody arrangements. This day, he came to visit me as my “Hair color model”
I remember it feeling really hard to say goodbye after that appointment.
While in Cosmetology school, I received a "Beauty Changes Lives" scholarship, which helped ease some of the financial burden. This scholarship was confirmation that I had made the right decision—turning down a stable job in law enforcement to follow my passion.
Since 2014, up until recently, I’ve been trying to fit myself into boxes so others could understand me. One day, during a break in cosmetology class, a classmate asked me, "What are you? What do you do? Why do you have a following?" Her questions stuck with me because I didn’t have a simple answer. With social media shifting to niche-driven content, I struggled to define myself. How could I explain that I was just… me, sharing my journey through life?
Now, I’ve come full circle. I’ve lived through enough experiences to confidently share my observations, perspectives, and guidance with others. I know my purpose: to help guide others into discovering their identity and aligning with their heart's desires.
Presently, in 2024 I’ve hired a mentor to help me see myself more clearly, just as I strive to help others. I’ve also enrolled in a program where I will learn how to guide and support others professionally. Yes, you read that right—I’m going back to school! It’s funny because if you’ve followed my journey, you know I’m always pivoting, learning new systems, and exploring different modalities. I often say I’ve lived many lives in this lifetime, and it’s true—it’s all been in service of my role as a guide to ambitious leaders seeking insight and wisdom.
September 2024.
This photo was shortly following me enrolling in the Fall 2024 - 2025 program.
A moment of gratitude, to know I we are have all that we need. Maybe all that we want, will come later.
With this new opportunity mirroring experiences from 2014-2015, I’m now focusing on structured ways to lead both myself and others through life’s journey. Do I need to invest in this program? Maybe not. I could start guiding people right now, based on the years of knowledge I’ve accumulated through energy healing, biotypes, human design, astrology, numerology, and more. But I know this program will give me the structure, confidence, and nationally recognized certification to take my work to the next level.
In summary, here’s what I expect from this new phase of life:
Dedication to continued learning and education.
Evolving into yet another version of myself.
This time, I will create better balance and routines to support my physical, mental, and emotional health. Time with my family will NOT be sacrificed. I will lean into my strengths and stand in my power. I will ask for help and lean on loved ones when needed. And I will not let others’ doubts shake my confidence in my vision.
I know this phase is all about preparing myself to hold a greater capacity to support those around me.
